my incik fiance kah~

salam..
hey its 15 mins to go for 12 midnite..again..i'm insomnia?
anyway..skang ni i wanna talk more about my incik fiance kah?

some ppl might knew about my past life..my fwens.they knew that guys always left me..hahhaaa..its the 6th cycle that i finally met my prince charming..

1st (computer engineer): he left me just bcoz of my spm results are way better than him..
2nd (mechanical engineer): he left me coz i'm not used to be a so'sial' gurl n not wearing high heels..
3rd (chemical engineer): he left me coz its a long-distance r/ship which is only an alasan coz there is 3rd party involvement from his side..
4th (lecturer): erks..this is the first time..that i left a guy..why?hrmm..senang ckp..tak serasi kot..less communication..
5th (mechanical engineer): he left me for his ex..but his ex left him again n again..dont understand that..
6th (the THIEVE who stole my heart): THIS IS MY SPECIAL GUEST TONITE FOR THIS BLOG..heee~

urrmm..guess i'm destined to be with an engineer..lol..
*but it seems like all the engineers hate me..hahaa*

and there goes my 6th~

still remember my end-year break..i was at home..browsing internet.specifically friendster..i was actually broken-hearted at that time..feeling bored..
enjoying my single life..n just wanna flirt around! hahaaa~

ermm..suddenly i went into this guy profile..
and his shout-out was..
'aku sumpah aku takkan kawen hingga umur aku 26'

wow..i was like..terkesima..laki apekah ini..mcm bgs je..cacat..mesti ade love problem..n aku mase tu yg ala2 busan tetapi ala2 berlagak kunun2 aku ni seorg dr love..tak payah la nak sedih2..nak sumpah2..aku yg dh 4x kna tggal ni relax je..mende aaaa..
* aku dr love? ptt la mase exam psychiatry 4th year aku dpt patient mixed bipolar dgn masalah cintanya..perghh..dr siap suh aku huraikan apekah masalah cinta dia sebenarnye..apekah*

back to him..the first photo of him that i saw is :
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quite cute..
nerd..
ade gmba kuwus..ade gmba gemok..hrmm..
yg tu jelah..
xde perasaan pon..

after some conversation for few days through fs inbox..he asked for my number..
and truly at that time..sape2 nak number aku,hambiklah..weee..tp..aku memilih gak..hrmm..
then he sms'ed me..
tp..
cara dia tu..
made me think..
alaa..no difference..he was just like other guys yg mintak number..pastu sms2..pastu after some time,hilang..and then sukati je mau muncul tibe2..den hilang..
urghhh..hate that kind of cookies guys..
dah la tu..
asik mau cari gaduh je..
aku yg mmg suke bergaduh mulut ni pon join sekaki laa..
layan je lah gaduhan2 beliau..but then..some msges of him that i still remember :

'laa..sukati saye lah nak tgk kartun..nnt anak2 kite nak tgk kartun saye leh teman'
(farin,2007)

'good morning sweetheart..'
(farin,2007)

itu antara msg beliau yg aku anggap 'laki ni flirt je'..aku tau dh..n aku anggap dia sbgai playboy..apebile seorg lelaki tu sukati dia je panggil aku sweetheart ke..darling ke..nmpk sgt la..mulut manis..bwekk~ byk kali dh kena..tau dah~

xpela..kami meneruskan rutin seharian dgn bergaduh dlm chatting..ade je bende nak digaduhkan..or shud i say..berdebat kah?

the thing is..beliau selalu tdo lambat krn beliau masih seorg student yg busuk kat utp tu..and aku lak dulu2 rajin study malam2..so..nak ilangkan busan, kna la chat dgn dia..gaduh dgn dia..dh mcm wajib je..
and suddenly..

beliau meluahkan rase bahawa beliau suke bile aku teman dia malam2..
eh aku teman ke? (denial)

up to 1-2 months..
one day..lepas gaduh2..tetibe lagi skali..
beliau menjiwangkan diri..and aku layan jelaa..
smpai satu tahap..aku rase ni tahap flirt aku yg paling dasat la..
aku yg ajak dia couple contract..
just wanna try..
the rule is..
we are couple but still we are free to flirt with anyone..

why i did the contract?
tak tahu lah..mase tu dah ade rase cm tanak kehilangan dia..teman aku bergaduh..
tu jelah pon..xde ape2 pon..*masih konfius*
then dia pon habis blaja kat utp yg panas giler tu..
he went to kl..just to see me..
*ececeh..ntah..ni kna refer balik kat beliau..ntah2 mmg dia saje mau dtg kl..jenguk umah family dia kat bandar tun hussein onn yg didiami adik dia*

tulah..mcm senang2 je couple contract dgn dia nih..dia kat bndar tun hussein onn..and aku kat bndar tun razak ni..dekat je..

and we arrange our first date..blind date kah?xdelah blind sgt sbb dh tgk gmba dia yg byk versi size tu..

taktau la nape arrange date tu jadi malam..
siang dia ade hal kot..aku pon x ingat la hari ape..weee~
dia dtg menaiki seekor kancil..and masuk dlm hukm..and memandangkan dia xreti jalan dlm hukm ni aku suh dia tggu separuh jalan tu..and i'll go there..
aku pon tatau nape aku jd cm poyo je..
sekonyong2 aku pon drive laa smpai kat tepi dewan audi tu..malam nih..kul 8 kot..
gelap laa..
and aku nmpk beliau..
erks..
gemok..
weeeeee..
and beliau parking ctu and naik kete aku..masuk je dlm kete..isk..besaunye beliau ini..penuh seat lah org ckp..fully occupied..wahahhahaa..
tp kan..aku xleh nk pandang mata dia lah..taktau nape..
nervous kah?
aku pon mule menculik anak teruna org g kg baru..
tp malangnye..jeng jeng jeng~

hahahaa..aku pon tersesat..beselah..bukan sesuatu yg baru..10x g kg baru tu..aku ikot 10jalan yg berbeza..keh keh keh~
we went to HR steak house..ala yg depan hostel aku dulu2 mase 2nd year..
and kitorg pon makan2 smbil bercerita la sgt..



and aku ingat lagi..restoren tu penuh giler..just ade 1 meja je yg kosong..
pastu duduk jelah..
bile dh duduk..no wonder la org lain tanak dok situ..
depan kitorg tu..ade umah sebelah restoren tu..ala kg baru beselah..crowded..
ade pmandangan yg bes sgt..
ade ampaian yg tergantung dgn bukan satu malah banyak underwear..muahahahaaa..
mengong lah..

nntlah sambung..
weee~

to my dear incik fiance kah~

weee..saye suda berkata kpd incik fiance kah mahu menulis blog pasal kami..namun..
ape yg terjadi td adelah sgt menensionkan..
membuat report diet bersama min dan laptop min yg trkena virus setelah penat mengira smua itu RNIM..ngaaa~

*dushh*

ape yg mampu dihasilkan malam ni adelah blog pasal kamera lak..wee..
incik fiance kah..sabar ek..blog itu akan ade..
malam ni xleh nak buat itu blog krana..
masalah teknikal..

nantikan~
wee~

picture-perfect~

ouwhhh yeahh~
i love photography~!!!

so maksudnye I LOVE PERFECT PHOTOS~

(seperti yg aku gtau min td..aku akan mati kalau virus mengacau folder gmbr2 aku ni..n aku on de way nak beli external..haish..apebila virus 2009 yg memakan sume words dlm pendrive aku yg diperolehi drpd library..sh** la library tuh..haih)

btw..currently there are no photos in my blog..bcoz..i'm on my way to edit all my photos with my own trademark..*coming soon*

i'll put my best *and my worst* photos later on yaaa..wait for meeee~
yeah..hope to get a dslr..(rasenye aku mewarisi minat ni dr babah gak laa..dulu dia obses terhadap slr..dulu2 xde yg digital nye slr)
and dying to buy one!

my choices are?
1) nikon d40 (nak harapkan d80?perghh..tggu aku dah bukak klinik sndirik..D3X? plissss)
2) canon EOS 1000D (murah tp..ape je yg ade?dahla 10mp je)
3) sony alpha (sony is still young in slr rite?)
4) panasonic lumix (ntah..xtau sgt)
5) pentax (ouwhh..ini jenama slr babah dulu2)

which one?
i'll start with the cheaper one i guess..one of my fren (credit to sudeng) recommend sony alpha..dia ade sony alpha ni..lumix pon dia pnah pakai..n aku pnah try gak lumix dia..nice..

the thing is..
??? shud i ask for a dlsr on my bday? (akibat ditinggalkan parents apebila mereka pergi ke surabaya n padang buat kali kedua tanpa aku???) tuntut~ weee~ that day babah ckp ok je..hrmm? ni yg aku risau ni..my dad ni mmg..sume ok je..sejak kecik lagi..still remember when i asked him to sew a barbie's skirt for me..and he said 'yes'..n smpai skang xnmpak pon batang hidung skirt tu..kekekkeee...

??? shud i buy with my own money? kerana suda dibelikan sebuah condo di puchong..adekah aku mau meminta2 lg dr parentsku? haih..anak-anak zaman skang..nak beli dgn duet ptptn kah???

??? shud i asked farin to put it as one of the hantaran? lambat sgt lak..hrmm..dia ckp bulan 4 mau belikan..weee..tp patutkah? dh la buh hantaran mahal2..tetibe mau dslr lagi..kang org ckp aku mata duitan..sedangkan i do LOVE U sayang~ weee~ emo lak..

thats y la smpai skang xbeli2 lagi dslr tuh..dah la suda mghabiskan duit dgn mmbeli E66 ini..

yg pastinye aku seorg penggemar kamera..n gemar mgmbil gmba..gmbr yg cantik bg aku..
tak perlu sesuatu yg luar biase..even ape yg kite lihat seharian pon boley jadi menarik jika diambil pd sudut yg menarik..weee..
bonus la if pemandangan at that time mmg cntik..tp..mane yg lebih susah?

amik gmba sunset di tepi pantai VS amik gmba seekor siput yg bertenggek ats daun yg boleh dilihat seharian?
aku rase mau amik si siput tu lebih susah..semut ke..aih..

dah nak kul 3 pagi ini..sok ade kelas cardio n gastro kul 8 pagi smpai ptg?aaaaa~ aku x bersedia setelah meminum teh ais..*fyi..teh ais adalah CNS stimulant yg dasat bg aku*

hee~
nantikan kemunculan gmba2 yg aku amik..ala..currently amik dgn ape je..nikon coolpix yg 14mp saja..

mari2..semoga REM berlaku skarang..*rapid eye movement= satu step dlm sleep*

*duhhh*

mari kira kambing~

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa~

nite2~

insomnia~

u think i shud put my blog's title as INSOMNIA? or difficulty to initiate sleep? as i need to write sumthing before i sleep..hoho..

hrmm..lame night..boh-ring~ duhh~
thinking now..i have class tomorrow mowning at 930..n still i'm not sleeping yet..aaa..reverse sleep pattern?

adekah aku alcoholic liver disease krn mempunyai simtom reverse sleep pattern?
gagagaaa~

i'm going to try some dishes at one new bistro mamak at bandar permaisuri tomorrow..hoho..as been told by cos..makanan sana sedap..yeke?
lets see tomorrow..haha~

food and pride..

Assalamualaikum..hee..actually this is my first time blogging through googles..before this I was blogging through fster..hahaa..i just wanna write sumthing about food..


Its about my enthusiasm towards food! Hahahaa~ ok fine..i love food and obviously I love eating!


I wanna tell about my experienced which was totally embarrassing me..well..i went out with my fren..4 of us in total..to midvalley..as the fishmarket manhattan outlets had been renovated, we want to see the new look..there we are..and planning for flaming plate..but to our disappointment..only for that day,they offered only dishes in set with ala carte..its a special promotion I guess..rm88/2persons..we are 4..n one of the waitress suggest us to take only 1 set of that rm88 with only 2 set of dishes as it is for 2 persons anyway..all of my frens were bla bla bla with the waitress outside the restaurant..i was actually getting annoyed of that..started to get annoyed..mcm ape je..bargaining outside the restaurants as if first time makan kat fishmarket manhattan..about 15 min I guess..


At last we went in..i said to them..its ok..i can pay half..money is not the problem..n I came there all the way with excitement just to get down by money problem?no way..

Only 1 set? Way no..i’m hungry and so my frens..so we decided to ordered 2 set..which make the total about 200 bucks over..

We are really happy..yeah…to release tension being a medical student..we started to snap photos here and there..and out of nowhere..came that 2 waitresses..they are MALAY.ok.

‘kak..akak order 2 set ke? Betul ke? Mahal tau..nanti jadi 300 lebih’

And came the other waitress..

‘haah la kak..mahal amik dua set..amik satu set dah cukup’

Tp aku jawab..

‘eh mana cukup..kami makan byk’

‘tapi mahal tau kak’

Dalam hati aku…

*Ko apesal?bukan ko yg bayar..ni dah kire menghina nih!ingat aku xde duit ke?* (there goes the dark side of me)

N my mood went down the earth..

Sepanjang mase tu my mood dah altered..cacat la bebudak tu..

Dah makan makan makan..

We decided to ask for the bill..n I decided to pay with my credit card..to show u two sh** waitresses..i have money ok..btw..i have 2 credit cards to choose from..a platinum one..or a gold one?hrmm..

ape kate ko yg pilih huh waitress?


aku xde niat mau berlagak..jauh skali mau menjadi seorg yg bongkak..sbbnye aku mmg seorgyg low profile..down to earth..tp..apabila kesabaranku tercabar..maruahku tercalar..aku bukan mya myra yg sopan itu lagi..uuuu~ hurmm..anyway,tak heran jika aku berkelakuan begitu..

referring from my past..sejak aku kecik lagi..aku dh terdedah dgn suasana2 yg aku kenalpasti sbgai suasana yg mencabar maruah..maybe ade sesetengah org rase bende tu bese je..tp..

bagi aku..mungkin agak sensitif..adekah sbb didikan family?


bercerita pasal maruah family~

nak dijadikan citer..peristiwa ini berlaku di sebuah restoran seafood di penang (dekat gak dgn umah aku..umah aku kan tepi laut gak..ala..kat kilang2 tuuu)

apabila pertama kali makan disitu..

kami memesan makanan dr pelbagai gerai yg berbeza..sana sikit..situ sikit..sinun sikit..

makan makan makan..

babah pon bayar la ape yg ptt..dr kedai2 yg berbeza itu..

tetibe mase mau balik..


'bang!! abg x bayar ais kacang ni lagi!!'
(jerit seorg waiter laki tanpa mengetahui ape akibatnye menjerit sedemikian rupe)

dan..byk gak mate yg tertumpu pd kami sekeluarga..disinilah maruah babah tercalar..(ececeh..agaknyelaa)


'ape kau cakap?'

'abg x bayar ni lagi..'


'kalau ye pon aku tak bayar lagi..xpayahla jerit kuat2..ingat aku xde duit ke..'

(actually salah babah gak sbb lupe mau bayar..tp nak buat cmana..byk sgt gerai)


dan..babah ku telah mencampak sejumlah duet kat muke laki tu..dgn kate2 keep the change..tak hbs lagi..babah telah menjerit dgn kuatnye..

'aku takkan jejak kaki lagi kat restoran bodoh camni'

....


disini kite dpt lihat..kesamsengan beliau..dan aku mungkin telah mewarisi kesamsengannye..bukan samseng jalanan..tp samseng apebila mau menegakkan kebenaran..dan tidak mau dipijak kepala..huhu..


no wonder la babah aku menjadi seorg hakim..haih..dan aku? aku tak mewarisi kepandaian berkata2 babah tu..dan babah seorg lawyer dulunye..lawyer yg mmg pandai berhujah..sedangkan aku? nak present slide pon ade anxiety symptoms..


bile terjadi kejadian begitu..mari kite same2 muhasabah diri..hrmmm...


'sebaik2 manusia tu adalah manusia yg mampu mengawal kemarahannya sedangnya dia mempunyai hak dan mampu utk membalas'....


mampukah aku???


(JANUARY 2009)

totally my family n me..

salam..hey..i’m supposed to write my case write up..not a blog! muahhaa~ no.i just want to write some clarification..understanding matters.about my family n me..just for those who want to know..n for those eager to know..u r welcome to read this blog..
hrmm..regarding my family..one obvious thing ppl will say is that..i’m from a wealthy family..rich family..weird family? hahha~ lets see..nape org ckp aku kaya? sbb umah aku yg gedabak besau tu?alaa..umah tu kat ipoh je..bukan kat kl atau penang..lgpun umah tu impian mama aku slepas penat dia kumpul duit dgn babah aku..my mama n my babah bukan jenis yg high maintainance person..n x suke blanje mewah..lately je babah suke brand unta tu..hikhik..thats all..slama ni..kitorg tak di ajar blanja mewah even ade duit..aku?aku mengaku bukan jenis high taste bile blanje during 1st-2nd year medic..even ade 2 kad kredit,kedua2nya hanyalah berperanan sbgai emergency..xpnah guna 2-3 tahun..after that aku mengaku la..aku agak mewah blanje..huhuuuu..satu perubahan negative yg brlaku pd diri aku..mase matrik kat pasum dulu xdela cmtu..maybe sbb dh ade kete kot..haih..hmm aku bukanlah jenis yg suke beli baju mewah sperti esprit, padini, guess, nicole, dan lain2..aku beli kalau ade 50-70% sale ok.ade duit pun..xde maknenye beli mahal2..all this while,my fav brand is arcadia, jusco..tu je..tu pun kakak aku yg ngajor..hahhaa~tp lg satu kelemahan aku..aku suke mencuba pelbagai fesyen..so bile trnmpk baju fesyen pelik2,i’ll buy without hessitate..(betul ke eja ni?)tu yg almari penuh ni..
i was born breeched vaginally in specialist centre ipoh..with poor apgar score n asphyxia..hahaha..i’m the youngest princess..i have two elder sisters..my parents? my dad is hj mohd nor hj lamsah..he’s banjarian..my paternal grandfather, hj lamsah hj azhari is from kalimantan,indonesia..n my paternal grandmother is hjjh ramlah hj hamzah, a pure tanah melayu woman..my grandfather is a navy..n he did have lots of land properties..he married twice..but divorced the second wife..reason?unknown..he was a strict father to my dad..he used to sent all his sons to a different keluarga angkat..for his sons to berdikari..yeah..my dad told me..he used to eat rice in the coconut shell..no plates for him..my grandpa will visits all his sons forthnightly..to give money..and he died of diabetic complications..sorg cousin babah yg x brape femes is khairil johari johar,penyanyi lagu raya, sepasang kurung biru tu..my maternal grandpa is mior hamzah mior idris..yup..we are miorians~ but there are yg masih sharifah n syed..mior comes in when a sharifah married org biasa..cth is my mom’s cousin,tuan syed..(alaa..yg mengajar korang mase biochem medic 1st year dulu..yg mata bulat n org ckp dia gatal tuu..he married a minah salleh..n anak dia model n pelakon iklan yg agak hensem..skang he lives near rumah aiman..)..my opah..is chinese..nama dia simple je..ham bt abdullah..tp bukan ham yg tutttt tu ek..my opah je ade lagi..umur dh dekat 80..bed bound..due to accident..still remember my tok ki..he used to eat together with cats in one plate..imagine that..n i love cats too.. he died of myocardial infarction..chronic smoker i supposed..ermm..lagi satu family mama ni ramai gak yg femes..prof khatijah jkm tu pon cousin mama aku..dia anak dato n sgt kaya mase kcik..but then dia seorg yg pendiam..rumah mak dia dekat je dgn umah aku skang..pastu pelawak din beramboi tu pun cousin mama..nama dia mior ahmad fuad..si pelakon filem cinta, dato rahim razali pun ade bau2 bacang dgn mama aku..tak terlupe kartunis LAT..also my mom’s cousin..kalau g umah dia suh lukis,dia bg satu artwork besar..ade kat dapur umah aku..dlm frame..ade lg cousin mama askar yg brpangkat brigedil..eh..ape aaa? mcm pekedel je bunyik? alaa..yg tu laa..nama dia mior adam..duduk kelana jaya..ada kenal?tu lah dia..aku ni kalau rapat dgn derang,bagus gak..tp dh lama x menziarahi mereka yg dh menetap merata2..n ade idup masing2..
my father is the 3rd..his eldest bro, hj salleh hj lamsah..is an IT businessman..dah bersara kot..ntah..he lives in damansara..sgt baik..he gave me rm50/A in my spm..i got 8..so..u know what i mean..hehhe~ he is rich..he has a 320 mercedes..yeah..n he has gout..my dad’s 2nd bro..rip..due to diabetic complication..he’s a very happy go lucky person..n ex-mckk..miss him anyway..my dad has a younger sis after him..but she died long ago before i exist..they said its brain tumor..but i’m not sure of that..then its my uncle again,hj mokhtar..retired telekom..eh..should i mention here..the 1st an 2nd are very tall..but when it comes to my father n so on..sume dah jadik rendah..hehheheee..then, my aunt, hjjh rohana..his husband died long ago n married dato salamon..ex shah alam datuk bandar..my aunt again, aisah..or aisyah? i’m not sure..shes famous for being a perwakilan ppl for keadilan in negeri sembilan..tp both my uncle dato salamon n my aunt kalah kat tempat masing2..huhuhuu..erks..no hard feeling yaa..biaselah tu..kalah menang..adat..then an aunt again..nama dia lain..tp dipanggil intan..hehee..she lives in klang..
my mom? she is the eldest..one of her sis, mariah..died in an accident during raya haji mase princess diana died..all 5 died..masuk paper muke depan ok..still miss my cousin..puteri liana..yeah..her father is a megat..i call her nana..miss her so much..al-fatihah for her.. yg lain? dok kampung..kat tanjung tualang..kg gajah..ade sorg dok kelantan..is a tabligh..n guru besar..anak dia pun ada yg jadi tabligh gak..sampai ke india,china diorg g..
my parents? my dad dulu belaja bese je..dia tak skolah VI mcm abg dia..tak skolah mckk mcm abg dia..tp rajin kot..dia keje pun bese je dulu..keje gudang..ngorat2 my mom..hehhee..then masuk lembaga hasil dlm negeri..tax tu..n my dad blaja LLB (lawyer) lepas kawin..mase tu aku kecik lagi..bayangkan..umur aku 3-4 tahun..bapak aku g blaja kat amsterdam n maastrich..lama giler..bile dia balik..aku ade stranger anxiety kat dia..hahahaa..lawak..aku siap ckp lagi..tamau dekat babah..nnt dia jual aku..hahhaaa..pastu dia nak sambung master kat usm..mase tu dok penang..tp slalu sgt balik lambat..my mom asik merajuk..at the end my dad just drop out..hahhaa..lawak..at that time..my dad dh jadi pengarah penyiasatan LHDN penang(keje dia reid org yg x byr cukai..stiap kali kassim mustafa nmpak bapak aku msti nk bg makan free..why?rasuah?my dad doesnt like that..pjabat dia kat depan port ferry tu..bgnn ijau..n mase tu aku skolah rendah suda..pagi2 aku kna ikot my dad g keje..sbb xde org nk jage..(slalu tukar maid..huhu)..n aku slalu tdo kat mane? kat bwh meja bapak aku..hahahahahaa~ smpai kan pa dia pun tau dh..anak boss dia suke tdo bwh meja..i miss that moment ;p my mom pun keje LHDN gak..tp bahagian lain sbb xleh bwh my dad..bias..n my dad pnah jadi pengarah kat kedah..alor setaq..lastly pengarah kat ipoh,perak smpai retired..dia terkenal dgn sikap garangnye..n very discipline maaannnn..damn strict at work..tp kt umah kdg2 je garang..heheee~ adekah aku terikut2 disitu? ;p but now..dah 3-4 tahun dia keje as a special commisioner of tax kat ministry of finance..putrajaya..byk bergaul dgn dato2 yg aku x brape suke..ngehhhh~ ermm..stiap kali g jenjalan luar negara dgn derang,sgtlaa aku x suke..lalalalalaalllaa~my mom? baru je pencen bulan 4 this year..skang dok umah..dia busan..tu yg dia amik anak angkat..my newly born sis..
to be cont la pulak..ngantuk.. ;p

(OCTOBER 2008)

nasi beriani jamuan raya..

salam..today is the day everyone is looking forward..nothing special..just the ordinary jamuan raya day..so-called hukm open house..anyway..as a dr wsw’s student..we’re not allowed to go out from the ward..from 8-5..with just an hour lunch/solat break..n today is the teaching-day..haiya..how to go out??? usually class will start at eight am..n today..we waited until 930 am..n fuhhh..no class?we followed the usual am round..with prof o..n suddenly..out of nowhere..that dr wsw came..interrupt the rounds n said to prof o..’i wanna take my students..n u’ll be happier without them..muahahhaa’ lor..class? aihh..jamuan?aaaaa~ n teaching begun..ngee..’amirah..do abdominal examination of this infant’..aishh..he had chosen me before..n its me again? n the class went on till 11 am..haaa..yeyeh~ wanna go makan makan free..
heee~ we managed to get some food..(i mean..more than enuf food) to eat..nice..suddenly my fren said..will this be our last jamuan raya in hukm? ngee..uwaaa~ make me think of sumthing..yeahh..i’m a final-year-studnt this lucky year 2008..hopefully..insyaallah..less than 6 months to become a safe n hollistic house officer..haihh..cant imagine me as a house officer..i’d prefer housewife..may i? hahahaa..maybe a MD-qualified-housewife? sure..thats what i wanna be..(cucuk BCG kat baby pon horror..cmana ni?)
i’ll try my best anyway..to achieved my ambition..to help the community..once i’ve been thinking of ‘why not serving for free’? if i could..
if anyone ask me..what do u understand by the word ‘doctor’..my answer will always be : is someone who takes huge responsibilities to help anyone for patients’ better outcome as they are giving us all their hope..n we’re holding their hope in our own hand..although GOD will decide everything,we are the one who tries our best not to let go hopes that are given to us..
eh..writing nonsense sudaa..~

(OCTOBER 2008)