i'm a FRESH HOUSE OFFICER!

alhamdulillah..
semua berjalan lancar..

btw..internet je yg tak lancar2..cant open this bloggie for 2 days..sheeeshhh..
back to the topic today..


I'M NOW OFFICIALLY A MEDICAL DOCTOR!!!

yeayyy~
oppss..i wonder why i'm yeayy-ing?
being a doctor is nothing special..
many might says..u'll make money mann..and with the title u got..

ya allah..
jadi doktor bukanlah senang..sejak jadi student ni lagi..kitorg tak senang bernapas..
takde sape yg faham kecuali amik sendiri degree ni..
and fyi..ukm is one of the medical school with the highest failure rates!
well..thats true when u look at our lecturers~
they are superb!
dari yg sgt baek pijak semut tak mati smpailah yg sgt tegas bile dia masuk ward,terus sunyi sepi..mcm2 gelagat..

even our staff nurses..they dont pampered us medical student..for them,we're just like Meconium Stained rather than Medical Student..yeah..they often call us MS..
when we get to attached to hospital teluk intan etc..
omg..the nurses are damn nice!

yesterday..is the day..after 4days post exam..
the results are out..name by name were announced by the dean himself..
our beloved prof dato dr lokman bin saim..
the name that wasnt mention..
sorry to say..
have to stay for another 6 months..
and exam again..

and the first name begin..
according to our matric number..
mine is 123..hee~
the first is 115..
plus some seniors..

and there he goes..prof lokman mentioned my name!!!
ya allah! mase tu allah je yg tau..
kitorg dah berpelukan2 di belakang audi..
takut nak duduk..
aku dah siap tarik2 tudung nisa..
sorry la nisa ye..
dah la ade sorg junior cina laki mane dtg ntah..
sesaje nak tgk kami..
aih..
dpt wayang free..
hahhaa..

sekarang..
mau daftar dgn mmc..malaysian medical council..
then tggu penempatan..
then pegi kursus induksi..perghh!

then bermulalah..hidup baru..
fresh giler kua..
from PPUKM!

ngaa! will i make it?
being a safe house officer?
independent?
but know the limit!

yup!
i'll try my best!
it'll be the worst experienced..tired..exhausted..get scold by superiors..nurses..patient..
i'm ready for it..
insyaallah..

there goes..
i'm a doctor since 24th of march 2009..
fulfilled my dream..
my parents' hope..
and my fiance..

=)

post pro exam and dinner..

salam..

gonna write somrthing here now..altho its 0120 moning on the 21st of march..i really cant initiate my sleep..(plz ignore the time and date written by the blog..somehow the settings are not on the right track)..and yes my room are now dark coz i've switch off the light leaving my study light on (but still it doest help much with the light coz my study table is filled with 1 feet tall of books..about 2-3 stacks..hoho..and sure have to wear my spec..or my astig will get worst..

today :

530am..
woke up..urghh..its my big day..
ermm..still early..nak tdo lah..

615am..
ngaa~ mandi2! cepat bgn and get bath!

700am..
after solat subuh and some breakfast (is a must for me)
tgk buku sket..
nane anta sms..wei..g kul 720 laa..yeah we agreed to go by 715 actually..

720am..
went to mcd..wait for nane n kak dya..

740am..
urghh..btg idung tada nampak jugaa..
tabley jadik ni..hp xbwk (nak xm kan)
berjalan lah aku ke hospital..

745am..(cepat giler jalan..dah smpai)
nampak prof sharir tgh bekfes kat cafe audi..
sian aku g exam jalan sowang2..
naik tgkat 10 sowang2..
ades..

750am..
dpt tag..number 4..hee~bilik d..

800am..
start clerking..
uh what? post op for recurrent gallstone with T-tube in situ..
alhamdulillah..pt gave me smooth history..
and i guess i look at the paper and ask question w/o looking at pt..
regret that..but thats my way to save time..

830am..
done with my history and relevant physical examination..as pt c/o pain..i cant procede further to access the abdomen..
not forgotten to take vital signs..

840am..
chat with the uncle..bla bla blaa..
silence.
kak pk tgk aku..aku tgk pt..pt tgk kak pk..

900am..
went to the room..
kak pk ckp..
wahh..sume boss2 dalam tu dikkkk..
psycho aku la tu..cis..

went in..
bg salam..tggu utk pelawaan utk duduk..

prof bilkis..
prof suhailah..
prof rohaizak..
prof fadzilah..

haah la..4 org je..bukan 5..
went on presenting my case..
with some interruption by prof rohaizak..

the thing is that..i cant help with my HABIT..
i played with my pen..during presentation..

and prof fadzilah tegur me..
dont play with the pen..

ooppss..sorry..huhu..didnt mean it..

and go on with my presentation and questions from prof rohaizak, prof bil and prof fadzilah..i can answer most of it..except for..

-hepatorenal syndrome..
-advice after removal of gallbladder..i did answer some..
-the other F for risk factor of gallstone..but get it at last..
-how does the LFT report comes out regarding bilirubin..
-cant remember others..

some questions that been asked to me :(which i answered)
-what type of medical illness causing some kind of gallstone
-acute mx of jaundice and epigastric pain with differential and IX..
-charcoat triad
-function of T tube..
-when to remove T tube..
-what do u see in u/s of HBS..
-ape ntah lg..xingat..

tibe2..w/o realising..i played with the pen again..but UNDER the table..
prof fadzilah look below the table..and i quickly put the pen on the table..huhu..

went to the pt..
questions2..

the queastions are quit ok..

and they wish me gudluck..passing me to the next team of examiners..
prof adeeb greet me..and asked my matric number..

besides prof adeeb, theres prof ong, prof sharir, one indian external and cant remember another examiner..i was busy looking and focusing at the next case..

the first case was with prof emeritus nafisah adeeb..shes my examiner in obstetric in last ong end-posting examination..shes one of my idol.. =)
shes 60- sumthing and still have good memories..
and i still remember one class my group had with her in the final year..
she asked us to cover 2 wards (theres 4 of us) in 2 hours time..
and most of my friends are scared of her..huhu..
she did scold us..smpai satu ward senyap sebentar..but then thats the beauty of learning..i really admired her style..shes very kind to patient and very professional..
ok..my case was a lobulated and firm uterine mass..my diagnosis was uterine fibroid then..managed to answer questions till management..
its 10 minutes..and SUPER FAST!

my second case was with prof ong..yeah..shes my examiner during peadiatric end-posting examination in final year..shes a calm woman i'd say..
my patient is an 8-y/o malay boy and his mother complaint that he was unable to walk and had a developmental delay..
plz examine the neurological examination of the lower limb..
one important thing i forgot was muscle wasting!
and prof ong asked me to inspect again..
prof adeeb was like helping me.'cant u see that..yeah that'
ok..i answered theres bilateral gastrocnemius muscle wasting..
prof ong said 'good'..i'm comfortable to hear that..hoho..
and another thing is that..i had a memory block! haha~
suddenly forgot how to demonstrate clonus..yaikss!
i did funny thing and prof ong asked me..what are u doing?
clonus?show it again to me..
fuhh..relieved! i regain my memory at that point of time!
with the plantar reflex..its down going but still the big toes was upgoing..ngaa~
prof ong asked me..
apart from small toes..where else u look for in babinski test?
erks..i answered 'big toe' as soft as i can..for not being confident..muahahah!
but the answer was correct and prof ong seems to look like '..yeahh..thats ok'
and what do u think is the most likely diagnosis?
oh..spastic cerebral palsy..
prof ong wants a 'spastic paraplegic cerebral palsy' but i cant remember that group of classification! hahaha~

my third case was with prof sharir,our beloved lecturer..
i did a cardiovascular examination and found AF and pansystolic murmur..hurmm.
i guess the jvp was raised..but i didnt focus on it..scared of the running time..
duhh..and prof questioned me..u sure the jvp was not raise?
ngaa~ why do u think its not a jvp?
i remember 2 out of 5 only~
ngaa~
dush dush~
and he asked me what is the commonest cause of MR in this pt?
so i answered 'ccf'
more common one?
'rheumatic heart disease'
tetttttt~
the alarm rings!

uhhh~
thats the end of my final clinical examination..

and on the same day..its our final dinner farewell dinner @ mines spa and resort..
i drove there..was actually following k and h..but yeah..u know me..
i reached there earlier..
nice place..
hang li po ballroom~
dalam dia tak cantik sgt..seriously..even the TTDI dewan is better..haha..
i prefer dewan endon at putrajaya or dewan merak kayangan..
thats where i attended most of the weddings of my relatives/parents' friends' children..

one thing i HATE about our dinner last night was..
the BUFFET style..yup! i HATE buffet!
coz i hate lining up like school kids just to get the food..damn annoying!
and i wont do that kind of buffet on my wedding..
it shud be like..
2-3 stations to line if u want to do so..
or maybe 4..
hate that! tak suke rebut2 makanan dgn org..and get the last piece..duhh!
please~

not forgetting..i got one of the lucky draw! hahah~ xpenah2 aku bertuah selama aku idup..really..
and my matric number is a99123..
hehe..a nice number ok..
when i first got the surat tawaran..i looked at my matric number..
wow..199123?
seeing is believing!

ok..tired laa..nak rest for the whole weekend!!! =)

one-day-pre-clinical-exam..

tomorrow..20th of march 2009..is the BIG DAY!

bukan mau kawen..jauh skali mau honeymoon..
but..tomorrow is one of my important day..very important i'd say..

tomorrow is my CLINICAL EXAM DAY!
its 2 hours..
one long case and 3 short cases..
with..

5 examiners!
all looking at me..asking questions..

i'm looking forward for tomorrow as i'm one of the 10 student who will be examined tomorrow..i mean..the LAST 10..

hahaa..org lain sume dh exam all this week..name aku lak jadi on the last day..
betape terseksanye menunggu..
walaupon lebih mase utk study..
tp..

lebih mase utk depress juge..
uwaaaa..

people out there! please~
wish me luck!
i need those luck!

ya Allah..permudahkanlah perjalanan hambaMu ini..
aku suda berusaha sedaya upaya yg aku mampu..
i'll be doing my best tomorrow..

and tawakkal..

insyaallah..

'saye nak lulus'
aminnn...

mi examiners..

my clinical exam's examiners till pro exams :

SURGERY :
1)mr razman
2)mr azim

MEDICINE :
1)dr nafeesah
2)dr patrick

FAMILY MEDICINE :
1)dr majmin

JKM :
1)dr k.g rampal

ONG :
1)dr ixora

PSY :
1)dr fairuz

ENT :
1)prof asma'

OPTHAL :
1)dr hazlita

ANAEST :
1)dr ramai2 tu..

SURGERY :
1)mr ramzi

ORTHO :
1)mr syed

ONG :
1)prof adeeb
2)dr ixora

MEDICINE :
1)dr adina
2)dr faizan

PAEDS :
1)prof ong
2)prof hamidah


ade lupe ape2 tak?heee..
just as a memory to me..sweet memory..thanks PROF And DR..

10 months from now..

hee~

tanpa kusedari lagi 10 bulan hidupku akan berubah..(ececeh..ayat skema kamben)
hrmm..ape preparation yg aku dh buat?
after pro exam la kot aku nak prepare betul2..huhu..

sedangkan faryn..on the other side..
baru2 ni dpt sms dia..

'be, be nak bape hari kat fraser hill?'

ouwhhh~ cepatnye..
'ermm..3 hari 2 malam suda..' bak kate dr fazly..3 hari 2 malaaammmm~

actually..thats our honeymoon plan..tula..kawen lg 10 bulan..apartment honeymoon dah siap book dah..hoho..
honeymoon awal lak tu..hbs je reception kat ipoh..terus g fraser hill..balik fraser hill baru g reception melaka..ngaaa..

besh besh..

apartment fraser hill tu actually apartment petronas..utk staf2 petronas bercuti..and basically the price are reasonable..

hee..i really cant wait for that..bukan ape..faryn ni dulu penah ckp dia tanak g honeymoon tmpat yg aku pnah g..x surprise..
aku xpenah g fraser hill ni kot..



btw..its our pre-honeymoon..hehheee..
nnt dh selesai sume reception..yg mmbuatkan cuti aku hbs for that month..(ouhh insyaallah mase tu dh bekerja)
so next month akan amik cuti lg utk honeymoon seterusnye..
ngeh ngeh..

eh eh..back to study!
thinking of this thing make me lupe dunia lak..aih..

anyway..i love him so much!
;)

tagged by PHIA.. =)

WHOEVER WHO GETS TAGGED HAS TO WRITE 10 THINGS ABOUT THE PERSON WHO TAGGED HIM/HER.:

1: nur sofiah abu kassim is the name..do u still remember when i called u 'TOPHIA' during secondary school?hahaha~
2: ouwhh..seorang yg COOL~ damn cool la weh..
3: mempunyai senyuman yg menawan~ ala2 iklan colgate~ bley jadik model nih~ ;p
4: pakai kete 206..oit! bile mau kasi daku naek itu kete merah??? mau maraa ni!
5: suke MAKAN? hahahahaa~
6: ade seorang adik lelaki yg mempunyai nama same dgn ex saye~ hahahaa~ =P
7: maintain cute since skolah la beb! apesal ko tak gemuk2???
8. pernah mempunyai masalah telinga mase skolah dulu! tp xgtau apekah masalahnye?ahahhaaa~ phiaaaaaaaaa~
9. my fwen since form 1..she's one of the POOH geng..jgn taktau!
10.suke sgt brand PADINI AUTHENTIC..still suke kah???

TAG ANOTHER 5 PERSON:1:
1) nak tag PHIA balik!
2) atul~ hoho~
3) my farin? hahaha~
4) mel~ plz plzzz~
5) izzatiiiiii~

first-time interview.. ;p

huu~
lupe suda mau cerita pasal interview..
hoho..actually this is my first time goin for interview anyway..seblom ni dpt mcm2 tawaran gi ntah mane2..even tawaran mase matrik utk study medicine kat ireland..sume ditolak coz..MALAS nak g interview!

at the end..terpakse gak interview~ hoho~
suda dikatakan wajib bah..
so pegi jelah..
btw..dahla tarikh interview tak kua2 mase tu..
hari2 dok ternanti bile laaa aku kna tebiu nih..

tetibe kecoh sumorang..tarikh dh kua..
aih..

aku lak hari pertama?dussshhh~
xde keje betol lah..
xdpt la nk dgr soklan bocor nnt kang..
aku lak yg kasi org soklan bocor.

xpela..pegi je laa..
bgn awal tuu..takut jem..julia..maina..aniem..ayu..
cukup 5 org sekete..
memule ingat mau follow kete matrokiah..
tp..
aku siap kul 630..engko kul 7 pon x nmpk btg idung..haduh..
last2 nmpk kete aiman..ikut jelah..
bukan xtau jalan pon..
putrajaya tu dh mcm tmpat aku lepak je..
spa?suruhanjaya perkhidmatan awam?
thats the problem..
selama ni aku berlegar2 kat ministry of finance..
mof tu aku tau la..
ni nak g spa?
ingat spa ikan ke?

tu yg aku ikot aiman..malas nak pikir pening2 cari pejabat spa tuh..
parking penoh..so block la kete org..
aku pon tak angkat handbreak..ayu try tolak kete..
leh je gerak..hah lantak lah..

kitorg masuk pejabat spa tuh..huh!
RAMAI giler org! aku ingat budak ppukm je ade..
dup dap dup dap sudaaa..
aku tapenah tebiu~gugu~

yg tebiu aku : datuk berbangsa cina..
so aku dh usha muke dia aku knal la dia..nmpk lak dia lalu2 depan aku mase tggu turn..
haih..

number aku 6..

tetbe turn aku lak..
antara soklan yg dia tanye aku dan aku jwb adalah seperti berikut :
(sesetengah perbualan terpakse di off record krn mngandungi unsur2 gelakan yg mungkin bahaya kpd kesihatan anda)

-amirah,awak tahu kenapa kami panggil awk ke sini?
-owh..utk melihat sama ada sy layak bekerja dgn kerajaan atau x..
(jwpn bodo aku yg pertama mendpt gelakan yg kuat)

-dlm byk2 subject,awk paling suke subject ape ye amirah?
-haa..i wanna be a psychiatrist~
(jwpn bodo gak kot..hahahahaahahaaa-begitu gelakan beliau lagi..prof maniam is my fren u know..i'm going to tell him one of his student wanted to be like him)

-kenapa awak nak jadi dr?
-aku pikir jap..urghh..busannye kalau jwb sbb nak tulun org..dan jwpn bodo aku lagi adelah : sbb dulu sy takut tgk darah! sy akan pengsan kalau tgk darah..so sy saje nak cabar diri sendiri..
(oooo..interesting..how u overcome that problem till now?..aku pon bg la cara2 aku menunggu kat bilik akak yg amik drh tu and beranikan diri main2 dgn jarum stiap hari..even aku masih menyimpan byk jarum dibilikku..huhuk..dan selalu menempel kat a/e dulu2 utk confidentkan diri mngambil drh)

-ape pendapat awk ttg abortion?
-aku pon bla bla bla..

-kalau dr sebelah sy ni bukak sebuah klinik yg menjalankan kegiatan illegal abortion dan awak seorg pekerja disitu..ape awk akan lakukan?
-sy akan berhenti kerja!
(hahahahahahaa-begitu gelakan mereka lagi..salah ke aku jwb?)
-walaupon dr ni kasi awk 15k utk abortion org yg rape cases?
(owhhh..duit bukan segalanya..sy tanak mngumpul dosa..)
(derang gelak lagi..adeh..)

bla bla bla..

diakhir tebiu..
amirah,i'm very proud of ur decision regarding abortion..u really stand on ur opinion..hahahhaaa..
beliau gelak lagi..dan beliau berkata..
gud luck..hope u can achieve ur ambition..bla bla..
(dan aku menyampuk..owh i wanna be a psychiatrist..a famous one)
hahahahhaaaaa-beliau gelak lagi kuat~

seblom aku kua pintu pon sempat lagi beliau jerit kat aku..
gudluck..thank you..bla bla bla..
aku hanye tersengeh..

kua je bilik sumorg tgk aku..satu dewan besau tuh..sbb aku sengeh sorg2 kah?

tetibe unexpectedly datuk tu kua bilik tu..and nampak aku tgh excited bercerita pd yg lain2..dia pon angkat tgn kat aku..hoho..aku pon ape lagik..angkat tgn balik laa...ngeh ngeh~



ermm...

mase nak balik lak dpt satu hadiah misteri..
wow!

ade surat CINTA di ats wiper..ouwhh..aku dh lame x dapat surat cinta cmni..
aku pon bukak lah~

'APESAL BODOH SGT PARKING KERETA? BLOCK KERETA ORG LETAK KAT P..MMG LAH XLEH GERAK!LAIN KALI LETAK KAT N'

eh alahai..sedapnye bunyik~ cair saye..hahahaaa..
so what? dh aku nak cepat td..
xde mase nak pikir2 tu..

btw tanyelah kwn2 ku adekah aku seorg driver yg best?hahahaa~
tanaklah jwb sendirik..kang masuk angkat sendirik..

gugu~
thanks to Allah for my driving skills..ngehhh~

;p